Alex = My Life

I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not; obviously, for the mean time, it's a very good thing - so I'm smiling. Had an ACE weekend with him =) Also, saw an amazzzzzzing film called An Education; screenplay was by Nick Hornby so was always going to be good! It was about a seventeen year old year who started seeing an older man, and questioning the whole idea of life without excitment - I loved it. Although, for reasons unknown, I thought the drive home would be an opportune moment to recite my 'older guy story' to Alex. In retrospect, it probably wasn't. One day I will learn to keep my stories to myself. Anyways, back on track; awesome weekend, awesome ballet, awesome film. I just want to cry whenever he leaves to go home. I am pathetic.

In other news, I had a minor panic attack yesterday (in regards to uni, getting a job, general lack of exciting things etc) and didn't actually know what else to do. My arm is not looking good. I haven't for ages. I'd forgotten how good it was. I've given up on it for the most part but sometimes reverting back to old habits, even the most destructive of old habits, is the only thing I know. That aside, nothing has changed, I still feel I have no direction in life, but at least I know that, no matter how out of control things get, I can still make exciting things happen. I hope.

Todays exciting things - I have custard, noodles, hair dye and train tickets. Tis clearly all about the little things at the moment!