Realisations

number 1. My mother is trying, not succeeding all too well, but trying nonetheless.
number 2. Nothing will ever be as satisfying as that feeling you get when you've just thrown up. I don't think this bodes well for me.
number 3. Alex does care. Probably more than anyone else. Definately more than any other guy I've ever been with. I need to appreciate him more. It's just easier when I convince myself that he doesn't. I worry myself sometime.
number 4. There is too much to read and too little time; note to self, must read faster.
number 5. I actually really enjoy my job at the pub, and despite anyones expectations, I would be quite happy working there full time.
number 6. I need to stop spending my life thinking about the next place I'm moving to. I don't feel like I have a home, or belong anywhere anymore, and I'm not sure what happens to those people who never settle in one place for a while...