Sleepless in Seattle

It is still the same night, I still feel like shit, I still can't sleep (just for a change.)

Tonight is the first night since we set off, about a month ago, that I have been on my own; had me time, to get my head together. I am having an amazing time, for the most part, but it's really hard being surrounded by people 24/7, I can't cut, I can't be sick, I feel like I can't even get angry or cry or show any emotion other than smiley happy lalalala...cue manic. I don't think I expected it to be any differnt to be honest, being around people, any people, even Amelie, every minute of everyday would drive anyone insane.

Tonight is not actually that bad; I'm clearly dramatising for the mere fact that I may not get five minutes on my own for the next few weeks therefore I feel I should make the most of this one and get everything out now. I never claimed to be logical.

I have one week left travelling, then I'm headed to PJ's. To my favourite place in the world, with one of my best friends in the world, the one who never fails to make me excited about life. I blatantly have nothing to complain about.

I am merely going to let the fact that I have, quite literally, no money (in that I am borrowing from Alex) pass me by, without worrying and getting sad. Watch this space...